January 4, 2009

Fresh Starts

The thing I love most about a new year is the feeling of a fresh start. That very feeling was what prompted me to start this blog a year ago...the need to have a fresh start. I was coming off of a passionately intense though destructive relationship, I was feeling trapped by the "good girl" image I'd perfected, and frankly I just wanted to see how expressing my sexuality and sensuality would change me. After a year, over 100 posts, and numerous bare and practically bare photos of myself later...well, I think I made a pretty good decision.

Over the last year, I've had some doubts about whether to keep this blog or just shut it down. At the heart of the matter, I was writing for myself. I thought things might come out in written form that were getting stuck when I tried to mentally process them. But, as often happens when you blog, I met people and made friends. I found some really awesome blogs and made connections. Then blogging sort of turned into writing for the benefit of others. And that kind of writing is harder to produce on a regular basis...at least for me.

So, after some thinking and processing (seriously, I'm a thinker and a lot of times tend to over think...silly me) I've decided that I'm not ready to give up The Naughty One just yet. Though I have decided to eliminate the need to write for other people's benefit. It has taken some pressure off knowing that this place is for me and my thoughts...whatever they might be...and if you, the dear reader, continue to read and comment then that is simply icing on the cake!

Life has seen fit to toss some curve balls in my lap (the sudden death of my grandmother days before Christmas, a health issue (of a strictly non-sexual nature) that has me somewhat concerned, job issues (love my job, but some new responsibilities have been given and will demand more of my time), computer problems, etc.) so these posts might become sporadic...well I guess I should say stay sporadic. Of course, one of the best things about the blogging community is that no matter how long the absence it still feels great to get back in the groove and catch up on what other's have been up to. I hope to make the rounds more frequently than I've been doing. And I'm sure my beginner attempts at erotica will continue along with some personal experiences and thoughts about sex in general.

So, here is to the fresh, clean slate of 2009...

10 comments:

David said...

You go girl.

Edtime Stories said...

Happy happy New Year, my the battles of 08 give way to the celebrations of 09. You know I love ya, and you can do what you want here.

Anonymous said...

Having just started reading your blog, I'm very glad you've decided to continue to write. Sometimes in my own blog I feel pressure to write to the masses, but I've since ditched that proposal and I truly write for my own pleasure and well-being. It's better that way, and I think the reader's enjoyment is constant whether it's written for you, or for them. People simply can't help but be fascinated by the lives and inner-workings of people other than themselves!

Anonymous said...

Happy new year. Glad your stayin

Anonymous said...

Good luck, godspeed, and keep writing. Happy New Year.

Alfie said...

So glad to see you back, having decided to keep at it.

A Sinful Affair said...

My dear...you choose for your self not for anyone else. I have to say I blog for my own. No one else. I am glad you have opted to stick around...we would miss ya!

Robin said...

I just found recently found your blog & have enjoyed your writing. I understand the pressure of feeling like you have to get something, anything posted...
I'm glad you've decided to keep going. I've found blogging/writing to be a great outlet/tool, & while I like knowing that people are reading, commenting, emailing, in the end I, too, do it all for me.
Robin

Mike Stewart said...

Glad to see you back darlin'! Your fans (myself included!) have missed you. You frequently give me the inspiration to do what I have to do if you know what I mean and I think you do know what I do even if nobody else does. What the hell did I just say! I think I better lay off the wine for tonight! Hey Happy New Year darlin'!

Sweetness said...

I totally understand! I of all people have dealt with the same things! Glad to see you'll be hanging around a bit more! Kisses --Sweetness